Max’s dad reached out to me to photograph his sweet Pug Chato, who didn’t have much time left here on this Earth. It took me two days to get back to him, because it wasn’t long after my own dad had left this Earth and I was (still am, rather) in the thick of heavy grief. By the time we spoke two days later, Chato the Pug was already gone :( I still regret not responding sooner.

He tells me he still wants to do photos with Chato’s brother Max, a 16-year old (16!) senior pooch. We schedule a time a few weeks out and wouldn’t you know the Universe had other (shitty) plans. Two days after scheduling, Max took a turn for the worse and wouldn’t make it to our session. I couldn’t believe it. This wonderful man was about to lose a second dog in a month. I re-arranged every possible thing I could to fit them in the very next day so I could be there for him this time.

Max’s dad, E, lost his mom just a few months before I lost my dad. We bonded over our losses. This session was full of lots of tears, hugs and so much love. I normally try to keep my emotions separate in these sessions, but with my own loss being so raw, and our bond plus my own sick pooch, I cried too. Especially on the way home. It was messy, beautiful and healing. E lost his mom and two of his best fur-friends in such a short period of time. My already-broken heart was even more broken for him. Life is so unfair and I wonder just how much we humans can take before breaking into a million pieces. They say “what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger” and while I agree to some extent, it’s a bullshit phrase to say to someone who has been through the worst events of their lives. Same with “everything happens for a reason.” I say F that. Never say that to someone who’s lost a fundamental love of their life. Human or pet. Also, a pet loss is JUST as substantial as a human loss. It’s never “just a dog/cat/bird/rabbit/etc.”

Love is love and grief is love.

Lessons - soak in every second with your animals. (And people.) Especially the seniors. Be grateful for every single second you get with them. Smother them with love. Don’t give any energy to anyone who says you’re spoiling “just” a dog. They’re not your people, anyway. I keep seeing this dog food commercial where people judge people who feed their dog nutritious food that’s kept in the fridge. At the end of the commercials, the criticizers are always kicked out of the house and the dog stays in. Live like that. Let anyone or anything go that doesn’t bring you joy, kindness or love. Life’s too short to be burdened by people that suck your precious energy and dim your light. Show up for the ones that matter. Especially the ones that have shown up for you in your darkest moments. My grief has made me so much more compassionate and aware of how I wasn’t there for people before, and to do better. I was there on the surface, but even as a highly-sensitive empath I never comprehended just how tremendously your world is shaken up with a loss that’s, to quote Taylor, “bigger than the whole sky.”

Important tip to help someone grieving- don’t ask what you can do to help. Just take action. Send them a meal, offer to walk their dog, watch their kids, ask if they need help with an errand or picking anything up while you’re out. Show up and do their dishes. Making any decision feels overwhelming when you’re in that deep grief and leaving the house when you can’t even find the energy to brush your teeth feels impossible. Send a card to let them know they’re thought of. Or a text. Hug them whenever you can. Keep checking in on them, especially months down the road when most people have gone back to their normal lives & forgotten yours is still a pile of rubble. Even if someone doesn’t have the bandwidth to reply, it’s incredibly supportive to know you’re not forgotten in the aftermath of the worst moments of your life. Don’t take it personally if they don’t respond for days, or at all. Grief can feel like a lonely island you’re on all by yourself if you’re not supported. It really takes a village.

Tips for grievers - Rest. A lot. As much as you can. Grief is exhausting in every sense. Take care of your body with healthy food. (Another tip for supporting grievers - comfort food is great, people, but when everyone shows up with donuts and sweets, it’s not great for a grieving body. I was so grateful when a friend brought a big green salad by!) Grief brain fog is real - you’ll forget everything. Your body is in survival mode. Cry, don’t push it away. You’ll realize some of the people you thought would be there, just can’t be for whatever reason, so you’ll grieve those relationships too. At the same time, literal strangers you meet on your path will be there for you in ways you wouldn’t have imagined. I believe these strangers are angels sent from your loved one. This is what Max’s dad is to me, an angel on Earth. We were meant to meet. Even if just to help heal our broken hearts.

I have so many more tips for new grievers but that’s really a whole separate post.

Sending love to you, especially if you know the pain of losing a parent, pet, partner, sibling, best friend, or anyone close to you. Grief is hard.

Max’s dog brother, Chato the pug, was with Max during his session via photograph. (Another not-so-subtle reminder to print your photos!)

Last year I donated a pet session to One Tail at a Time rescue for their annual Houndstooth Ball benefit. Phoebe’s mom (aka human) won my photo session and I was so pleased to meet the both of them. We met up at the little park by Ipsento right off of the 606 trail on Milwaukee Avenue and I got to photograph Phoebe running around in her element. I feel so fortunate to be able to give back to rescue organizations that work so hard to give animals like Phoebe a great life. Bring me alllllllll the dogs for these lifestyle playful sessions! I love documenting their personalities, quirks and all the things that make you love them so much. I often wonder if I was a dog in a past life because I have some deep unexplainable connection with them - I love dogs way more than a lot of humans ;) So glad to have met you A & Phoebe!